Life at 40…

I realize that sometimes I’m overly optimistic, but I have my moments of doubt.  Last week I turned  !  Thankfully people are shocked when I tell them my age, genetically I’m very blessed with great skin.  I had a great birthday, as my husband made sure it was very special, I’m so lucky to have him, but this wasn’t an easy day to reach.

About 3 weeks before my birthday I started taking a personal inventory of my life and I spent those 3 weeks crying a lot, and in quite a funk.  At 40 I really thought certain aspects of my life would be so different.  What I realized in that self exploration is that, even though the journey may have been different than what I had envisioned it being, it turned out amazingly well. 

At 40 I have a personal relationship with the Lord.  I am healthy, strong, confident, self loving and beautiful.  I have the most amazing, wonderful husband, whom I share an awesome relationship with, and after 6 years we’re still very much in love.  I have a fantastic biological daughter that is more than I could have ever dreamed she’d be and, by marriage, I have another fantastic daughter whom I am so fortunate to have such a great relationship with.  I have a wonderful mom and step dad, sister, brother, nieces and nephew.  I have my own business and am so blessed to be able to work with very good, positive people.  I have amazing friends that support me no matter what.  God has blessed me with a positive out look on life, a great attitude, and the capacity to be able to touch people’s lives and really make a difference. 

Material possessions are pointless to me.  We need what we need and that’s enough for me.  I don’t want to be a millionaire, just have enough to pay my debts and be able to give my daughter’s the educations they deserve.  I have a nice home, dependable vehicles, clothing, food, and warmth.  Thanks to the good Lord, I do not want for anything.  He has supplied me with everything I could ever want from this life.

In my personal inventory I realized that, even though the journey of my life may not have been what I’d planned, the outcome is more than I could have ever expected.  How blessed I am of this life and I am so thankful for another year to celebrate and appreciate my blessings. 

So, yeah, I’m 40 now.  A new decade of my life…a new journey filled with so many blessings…